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March 20, 2020

They say that

the doors we are presented with in life

are the first checkpoints to tiers of lessons

we’ll need to survive,

and it’s funny how I’ve started feeling the same way

with the refrigerator door -

the way I no longer swing it open

for the cold bowl of grapes I thought...

March 19, 2020

I guess

in between all these uncertainties,

the headlines we dread,

the despair in the comments,

the confusion these things bring,

I guess in between all of these,

I am grateful

that we are home,

I am grateful

to have my daughter's smile

as my only piece of good news for the day...

March 18, 2020

How are you? We sure are living in confusing times now, and I have to admit, in between trying our best to hold on to hope and positivity, it sure can be overwhelming to consume bad news every other hour of the day.

Here’s how I’m surviving for now: shifting all our t...

March 16, 2020

It may seem as if we were never quite prepared for this -

this pandemic,

this panic

we wish we'd skipped,

the possibility of falling sick

(well God forbid) -

it may seem as if we were never quite prepared for this,

but not until we realize

that a mother's heart is always prepa...

March 13, 2020

As the years go by, you will learn
that the beautiful thing about growing up
isn’t just the candles blown,
but the way you light up into someone new,
the way you’ll learn about the traits you never knew you had,
the way they flicker not just in the dark,
the way they c...

March 8, 2020

Sometimes maybe the best thing about being a woman
is the way you can hide your worries 
behind a facial mask
and the way you can label your bad days as
“hormones”
until you start wondering 
if maybe all these hiding
have made you
not heard enough -
when you raise your...

March 3, 2020

You hear the name Supermum being thrown around
in many odd places in between conversations
as if she exists,
and maybe she does,
but not in the way that she’s able to do it all.

You will cry,
you will scream,
you will doubt yourself,
you will break,
you may occasional...

February 28, 2020

The thing about being a woman
is that you will always be bombarded
with rows of fashion and beauty items
the marketers will want you to own,
you are spoiled for choice
and while that isn’t in any way a catastrophe,
you will soon realize that the outfits you choose
may...

February 24, 2020

I didn’t always enjoy motherhood as much as I do this way, under the sun. As I plant my smile somewhere in between my children’s cartwheeling shadows on the sunlit grass today, I am brought back to six years ago when motherhood first greeted me like a rush of huge wave...